Fifteenth of June

Five years ago I woke up to pee, for the millionth time, took one step towards the bathroom and my water broke.  Like a scene from a movie it happened, sounding like I threw a pitcher of water on the carpet, hitting the floor heavy waking up Dj.  I didn't move for a few seconds and he shot straight up, looked at me and said,


 "What was that?!"
"Uhmmm, pretty sure my water just broke"
"Ok, I'll grab the bag"

I immediately went and sat on the toilet, which I knew wasn't the smartest thing to do, but I mean really, what do you do when you can't stop leaking?!? I wasn't nervous, I never panicked, I was calm and so excited.  Today was the day.  The day I would meet the little body inside me, tumbling around when I was trying to sleep. The little person I had bonded with before I even met, the one who changed my life the night I peed on the ClearBlue Easy, read those 8 little letters, and handed it to DJ.  We had both been living a very single Vegas lifestyle, and I never, in a million years thought I would put the carriage before the horse, well.... when you play with fire.... anyway motherhood was always in my plans, and when it came to me in the less conventional form, I just rolled with it.


My water broke just before 7am on Thursday morning, and Jordan was pulled from my body 17 hours later via C-section, weighing 9lbs. 2 oz, 19 3/4 inches.  I had a complicated delivery, and not to bore/offend you with the details because it was complicated, but the best part was that it was just the three of us, me, Danny, and the new one we were waiting to meet.  My family had been the first on the list of calls on the way to the hospital each willing to rearrange their schedules and drive down but honestly some of the best moments between Dj and myself were spent alone in that hospital room, uninterrupted just taking it in. I will always be grateful for that time. 

Jordan Andrew Sugar-Ray Reece.  My best-friend.  You have truly taught me the ability to love, to be loved, and to give.  I know we started out backwards, and honestly some days I wasn't sure I could be the mother you deserved but thank you for choosing me, accepting me, trusting me.....  You have taught me so much in these 5 short years, I can't imagine a life without you.  I have not always made the best decisions, Lord knows I learn the hard way, but you- you are thee best decision I have ever made. Thank you for giving me the title I am most proud of, mother.  You continue to amaze me, and I have loved (almost) every day seeing you grow, learn, and mold into your own person.  You make me laugh, embarrass me on the regular, and remind me to be a better person daily.  I look forward to seeing the man you will become and hope you will always share your life with me.  I am your biggest fan, your very own cheerleader, and I promise to always love you even when you feel like I don't.  Sometimes life will be hard, people will not always be nice, and you will make a few mistakes along the way, but just remember there is nothing you can't share with me.  And always remember, above all else, I love you and I want nothing more for you in this life than happiness and love.